Hi, how are ya? .
@thevivianvanity bought me the #bluebloodpalette and im so beyond thankful and excited to FINALLY own such an iconic palette! 100% in love!!
Model/MUA: @rsephone .
This picture is dedicated to my heart.
Three weeks ago my chest started to hurt, I tried to ignore it but the pain grew. It felt like a huge bruise on the inside of my chest that was being stabbed. It was hard to breathe,hard to move, hard to exist comfortably. I went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with a rare disease called “Pericarditis” which is basically inflammation and fluid inside the sack that holds the heart. I was given medication but the pain persisted. I went from working out 3 times a week, going to stores, playing with my son at parks, cooking three meals a day to basically being bed ridden. Every breath hurts, every heart beat hurts, every movement hurts. It has been hell. It has been isolating because I’ve had to miss out on a lot of things or had to leave early because I’m in so much pain all the time. It’s been depressing because I basically don’t leave the house much and trying to explain to a 4yr why we can’t play like we used to is heartbreaking. I’ve felt useless as I’ve watched the house work pile up and not being able to stand up long enough to cook. The only way I feel relief is to be laying down flat. I went to the cardiologist this week and I was put on a different medication. I’m feeling a little bit better but it might be a while before I’m fully recovered. Luckily Ive had the unconditional love and support from my family and friends, especially my fiancé. He’s taken care of me so well without complaint. He’s gotten me food, taken care of our son, tended to every need I had, been so caring, patient and understanding. I am so beyond grateful for him.
But don’t worry, my heart will heal and I’ll be back to my normal weird self soon enough.
I wanted to do a piece that shows how bad it hurts. Im not an expert body painter by any means but doing this made me feel a little bit better.
Happy stuff coming soon.