This weekend, I did something completely out of character. Something that even my friends and family were shocked I did... I had a night away from my kids.
Now this requires some context. I was that possessive mum people would roll their eyes at. I was that mum who didn’t leave my first kid alone until she was 7 months. Not even with dad. I was that mum who couldn’t bear the idea of the kids having a sleepover at grandmas. I was also that mum that hadn’t had a night away from the kids in almost 6 years. Until Saturday.
This half term has been a gruelling one: with new challenges and the monotony of old routines. I felt myself drowning some days and swimming proficiently on others. But this weekend, I decided to get out of the sea completely and checked into an overnight spa break. Alone.
It was strange. Awkward. But also strikingly refreshing. I opted to read instead of binge on movies. But it was lovely. Obviously I’ve come back and jumped right back into the sea. But it’s made me realise, it’s ok to say ‘I need a break.’ It really is.
I was that mum who hadn’t had a night away from her kids. Until Saturday.
In questa giornata uggiosa, una splendida notizia!
Finalmente si realizza un progetto a cui teniamo moltissimo..nasce DIQUI!
Che cos’è se non l’unione esplosiva di Diletta e Ciqui!!??
Due amiche con un sacco di passioni in comune: il fitness, lo stare all’aria aperta, la montagna, il sentirsi bene. Tra chiacchiere, risate e pose di acroyoga vi faremo compagnia nelle vostre giornate portandovi con noi in alta quota e strappandovi qualche risata!
*Don't date unless you absolutely, completely want to*
After having been in a number of relationships, in a row, some I haven't even been invested in, some I have, but not quite, it has only made me realise that maybe, it wasn't worth all my time.
While I absolutely do not discard their importance in my life and do not discredit the time that I have spent with them. I do realise in the end, after having dated them, despite them being amazing, beautiful people that they are, we were just not cut out for each other.
Having similar interests does not qualify me for dating them, and that alone is not good enough a reason.
Only after a series of jumping from one person to another, now when I finally sit down and look back, all I have is a mixed bag of confused emotions. I have bitter sweet memories, but I also have lost time that I could have spent with myself, reading all the books lying in my bookshelf, learning a new skill, being better at what I do.
I realise that all the time I was absent from family gatherings and my friends partying was much more important to me.
I did not want to be bombardrd with calls in the middle of work and most certainly did not like to be nagger after a long day at work
After a long Friday, I could have watched TV all night or grabbed a beer at a local bar and talked to a stranger.
I should have/could have thought of myself independent of themselves and planned for myself and me alone (Before we start with the whole debate around independence, it's human to attach the person you are with into your plans)
Please do not misunderstand me, I am not against the idea of dating and exploring but it's better to do things that we are happier in, rather than doing some for the sake of it.
We are all too young to think about all this.
And we are young only once, to miss out on youth!